Null had been acting
rather coldly towards her and been even more secluded than normally. This
had happened after their adventure
in the woods. And a day later, he'd dissappeared.
Sebille had been leaving him messages but had gotten no answer.
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She'd been worried and had
decided to try calling him once more.
So far she'd always been directed to his answering machine.
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"What?" Sounded the
familiar dry voice on the other side of the line.
"Null... Are you okay? Where are you?"
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" ..."
"I've been leaving you messages."
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"I know."
"You know? Then, why didn't you answer me? I was worried and--"
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"I can't talk now."
And his voice had been replaced by silence.
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...
He'd hung up.
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Sebille had fallen to her
bed. Why didn't he answer her messages? Why was he so cold all of a sudden?
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Sebille had begun to
wonder whether this would work at all.
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He had a habit of
dissappearing and being secretive.
She didn't really mind secrets but she'd like to not be completely clueless
****
A day later:
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Shopping always made her
feel better. Especially shoe-shopping.
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These beauties had costed
a bundle but they were totally worth it.
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" ..."
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"Well, well... If it isn't
Mr. Unavailable."
Her feelings had been hurt and when she was hurt she became irritated.
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" ..."
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"Not saying anything? Out
of excuses---"
Her sentence was stopped short by the look he gave her.
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He still looked cold and
also slightly annoyed.
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Sebille's resolve was
shattered.
" ..."
Couldn't he just please say something? The silence was killing her.
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He sat down on the bed and
she moved slightly away from him. Not because she was afraid of him. She
couldn't be, she knew him too well (to a certain extent, anyway). She moved
away because she was hurt.
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"Why didn't you leave me a
note? And what have you been doing?"
No answer.
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"You've been grouchy since
before you dissappeared without a trace."
No answer.
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"For all I know you
could've decided to never come back. Or be abducted... or whatever."
No answer.
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"You have no idea what it
feels like to not know anything..."
"Seb..."
She'd gotten into the rythm and wasn't about to back away now.
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"Being in the dark is the
worst. You could be lying in a ditch somewhere and I might never find out.
Or you could just walk out on me and never tell me why. Or even never
contact me. You could just as easily leave me all alone again."
"Seb."
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"Or you could even--"
"Seb!"
He put his hands on her arms, sounding determined.
"I couldn't. I had no choice."
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" ..."
She looked into his eyes. They were less cold now but he still seemed a
little stressed. But more than anything, there was something in them...
something that she couldn't quite make out.
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She looked down, defeated.
"I know...."
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Yes, she had known. Deep
down somewhere, she had known.
He wouldn't just brush her off for fun.
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"I hate being this way...
It's not appealing at all. It doesn't feel good, either."
And it'll push you away someday...
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